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Ravenous wrote:Is it just me or are the people who love Rin the most mentally screwed up?

Depends on how you define "Screwed up"

Ravenous wrote:Is it just me or are the people who love Rin the most mentally screwed up?

I'm not sure what you mean by screwed up.
But what I do know is she is clearly Autistic and the fact that I can't stand her.
So annoying, I understand, I being an Aspie myself that the most common symptom of Autism is having a hard time thinking in the same pattern of most people. But she doesn't even seem like she's making an effort to understand other people.
At least freaking try! On top of that She's just plain annoying.

Zezin wrote:

Ravenous wrote:Is it just me or are the people who love Rin the most mentally screwed up?

I'm not sure what you mean by screwed up.
But what I do know is she is clearly Autistic and the fact that I can't stand her.
So annoying, I understand, I being an Aspie myself that the most common symptom of Autism is having a hard time thinking in the same pattern of most people. But she doesn't even seem like she's making an effort to understand other people.
At least freaking try! On top of that She's just plain annoying.

Well, at least she's not a transparently shallow and personally grating future-HR-manager like Shizune. The reason I'm fond of Rin is because she reminds me of a number of people that I happen to be fond of (or was at one point), and she seems quite a bit more open to interpretation and complex as a character than any of the others besides perhaps Lilly and Hanako.

At the time I played, Hanako was by far my favorite character, but Rin is my favorite character in retrospect.

By the way, pronouns aren't supposed to be capitalized in the middle of a sentence like that unless the one in question is "I" or it's in reference to God.

Snuffkin wrote:By the way, pronouns aren't supposed to be capitalized in the middle of a sentence like that unless the one in question is "I" or it's in reference to God.

I know it's a bad habit. I try to go back and correct them but always quite a few slip by me. I just like sprinkling capitals I guess.

First, I would like to say that I'm no native English speaker. I'm brazilian, and although I've studied English for some 10 years or so, I've been rusty recently and I'm prone to mistakes. Also, there's quite a lot of text incoming, so I apologise in advance.

Well, although I have never been actually analysed, ever since I started studying psychology I got some insight about a few quircks I have. It eventually led me to question how "normal" I was (although I had a few doubts about it earlier, I just never sought it out). As Freud himself said, in modern society we are all broken. We just find ways to alleviate that.

So, although I do know that autoanalysis is not a good idea (considering I'm still on my 3th year, nonetheless), I do think I have a SPD tendency. Specifically, a "secret schizoid", as Klein calls it. I tend to socialize rather well, but that's because this attitude is known to be better than being gloomy n a corner of the room. I seek others mostly for the social weight (society tends to view outgoing people in a better light), rather than a deep wish to connect to other people. I go with the flow, really. This has started ever since the girl I liked moved away. My closer friends also noted that I got somewhat distant, and that our relationship has never been quite the same after that. So, although my social bonding isn't really bad, it leaves me feeling empty. It's as if I'm surrounded by people, yet I can't relate to anyone. I'm "alone in a crowd".

Also as part of schizoid symptoms, I tend to find my internal world more interesting than the outside world. My interest in games, anime and such might be in fact just ways for me to disconnect from the real world. I also have whole lots of monologues, be them mental or verbal. It isn't rare for me to even play the part of another person and forge a dialogue. I also daydream a lot, and recently I noticed that my focus has dropped as well.

Talking about relations is actually quite hard, as well. Like I said before, my first love turned me down, and although I try to play it off, I know that it actually left a scar. To this day, I have problems expressing love and affection. My friendships also feel rather shallow (for me). It's as if the pain was too big and I created a line that I don't let anybody cross. Of course, if one believes that love is about accepting AND being accepted as a whole (which is something I do believe, as well), then this means love life for me is pretty much impossible. Maybe affairs, but not love. And since I'm a romantic at heart, that means affairs are also out. And this pains me quite a lot because I know that although I want to be loved, I myself am the one driving people away. As much as I try to bond, that damn line is there, and I can't erase it.

Parents are quite complicated as well. When I turned 16 they went overseas to work. I hate then for leaving me, and I love then for all they have done for me. They actually asked me whether they could go or not. I knew it was for my sake, and if the situation stayed the same it would be no good. So I lied and said they could go. Now I was at middle of adolescence, and my guides were not present. Not to mention, I had to organise a timetable so that I wouldn't forget to pay the bills. I also had to cook and clean the house. And take care of the dogs. Oh, and also, study. My life was a mess, but I didn't want to worry them so I simply told then "I'm fine" whenever they asked how I was doing. To this day, I still lie to them when they phone me and ask how I'm doing. And my biggest goal in life being finding a job and repay them for everything they have done for me (my going to university was also influenced by this, since I never gave much though about what to do after I graduated High School). The fact that they divorced last year doesn't help either, as it makes me think things could be different if I stopped their travel 5 years ago.

So yeah, I'm pretty much screwed, but it doesn't show. My conflicts are internal, and I've found ways to deal with them. The problem is, those ways aren't the best possible. And as much as I want to change, I'm stuck. As more time passes, my personality solidifies and changes are farther and farther away. Or I'm just being dramatic and overthinking things. Psychology can do this to you.

AkioRed wrote: I seek others mostly for the social weight (society tends to view outgoing people in a better light), rather than a deep wish to connect to other people. I go with the flow, really. This has started ever since the girl I liked moved away. My closer friends also noted that I got somewhat distant, and that our relationship has never been quite the same after that. So, although my social bonding isn't really bad, it leaves me feeling empty. It's as if I'm surrounded by people, yet I can't relate to anyone. I'm "alone in a crowd".

Also as part of schizoid symptoms, I tend to find my internal world more interesting than the outside world. My interest in games, anime and such might be in fact just ways for me to disconnect from the real world. I also have whole lots of monologues, be them mental or verbal. It isn't rare for me to even play the part of another person and forge a dialogue. I also daydream a lot, and recently I noticed that my focus has dropped as well.

Talking about relations is actually quite hard, as well. Like I said before, my first love turned me down, and although I try to play it off, I know that it actually left a scar. To this day, I have problems expressing love and affection. My friendships also feel rather shallow (for me). It's as if the pain was too big and I created a line that I don't let anybody cross. Of course, if one believes that love is about accepting AND being accepted as a whole (which is something I do believe, as well), then this means love life for me is pretty much impossible. Maybe affairs, but not love. And since I'm a romantic at heart, that means affairs are also out. And this pains me quite a lot because I know that although I want to be loved, I myself am the one driving people away. As much as I try to bond, that damn line is there, and I can't erase it.


So yeah, I'm pretty much screwed, but it doesn't show. My conflicts are internal, and I've found ways to deal with them. The problem is, those ways aren't the best possible. And as much as I want to change, I'm stuck. As more time passes, my personality solidifies and changes are farther and farther away. Or I'm just being dramatic and overthinking things.

Resonating

Social Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder are all I've been diagnosed with. I think I might have some other issues but I haven't seen a professional since middle school.

I have numerous phobias.. I'm scared of pretty much everything. I'm not on medication though sometimes I wish I was. People say medicine only masks everything but I don't care.

Would anybody here mind altogether much if I were to start randomly diagnosing people with things according to the practice of Soviet psychology?

Snuffkin wrote:Would anybody here mind altogether much if I were to start randomly diagnosing people with things according to the practice of Soviet psychology?

Personally, no, but that's an individual thing

T'was in jest, comrade.

Snuffkin wrote:T'was in jest, comrade.

I suspected as much, but not sure ^_^"

Yeah, unlike some of you in this thread, I can stop being literal-minded pretty easily.

ADHD-PI -I'm medicated for that, so it's not so bad. I usually have somewhere between 150-300 tabs open in chrome at any given time though...
GAD -Taking nothing for it because of medication side effects. Sort of sucks.
PTSD -Shouting and violence make me freeze up and act incredibly irrationally due to the event that caused it... It's best just to avoid fighting with people or people who are fighting.

Spiffyspliff wrote:I usually have somewhere between 150-300 tabs open in chrome at any given time though...

Another fellow tabber ^_^ Same here, But I only got 170 :/

At what point do they make a Hoarders-esque reality show about that?

I used to have around 212 tabs open regularly. 2 news outlets, 4 forums, 3 EVE killboards, deviantart, photobucket, at least one amazon page, at least one musician's friend page, router preferences, etc. The computer ran plenty fast.

I don't know if claustrophobia count as mental disorder but I have it.

As I learned it (and according to DSM-IV), phobias can be considered mental illnesses.

Is trypophobia a real phobia?

Me: (cluster c) DSM-IV 301.82 avoidant personality disorder.
My girlfriend: ICD-9-CM 300.21 agoraphobia with panic disorder.